Shawn and I worked on setting up my site at Blogger yesterday. By early evening, my demonals site was launched!! I picked a template that I liked and then we fiddled with the colors to make it more representative of me, added a couple of things to the sidebar, and uploaded all my posts and pictures. I started writing blog entries prior to this because I wanted to get a little bit of a buffer going. That way I wouldn’t have just one post and one demonal when I started out online. Once everything was in place, I scrolled down to view it all and thought it looked great! It was pretty, to me anyway since I’m crazy about purple and orange, and it was simplistic in design so not too busy. At some point I’ll be working on changing the header and putting up something more interesting, but for now what is there will do.
I’ve been tweeting to a certain extent about what I’ve been doing, but I don’t think it felt fully real until I announced my site. I was both excited and nervous as soon as I pressed the update button on Twitter!! The longer I sat there the more nervous I got, so I went into the living room and started thinking about what demonal I would make next. My mind was empty of ideas, the knowledge that my site was out there now swirling around in my head! It’s kind of stupid in a way to be so anxious about the whole thing. It’s not like there would suddenly be this influx of people as soon as I made the announcement. In fact, most likely demonals will be yet another site on the internet that is being visited only by the person who created it. But it’s still nerve-wracking to me because I’ve officially put myself and my idea out there for all to see. What will anyone that sees it think? Will they like it? Will my lack of skill make them wonder why I’m humiliating myself by showing it to anyone that comes by my site?
Whatever people may think, I need to focus on doing this for myself. Other people digging your idea, your imagination, and your creations would be great, but even if no one comes to my site and my demonals are only ever displayed in my own home this is my project and something I’m enjoying. Bottom line, it’s all about whether I’m happy with making them and blogging about them. As long as I have that, I can’t place too much importance on the rest. For my own sake.